I loved my elementary school counselor. She was sweet, gentle, and compassionate.
However, in her office, I remember my first official secular education on self-confidence.
But if was years before I even comprehended that self-confidence is a clearly secular teaching. And so, my lack of self-confidence has been a constant sting of inadequacy and discontentment.
But God doesn’t desire me to be SELF-confidant.
In fact, the message of the cross, the message of the gospel is Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven (Mathew 5:3).
Until recently, this verse confused me.
What does poor is spirit mean? And what could this possibly have to do with the kingdom of heaven?
But our church recently did a sermon series on the sermon on the mount. And on Easter morning, it suddenly became clear.
It refers to the depravity of soul.
And so, this lack of self confidence is not a flaw in my faith. Instead, it declares my need for faith.
Because I have a deep depravity, I need Jesus.
I need the Cross.
I need the Resurrection.
And in His salvation, self confidence is replaced with my identity in Christ.
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.